Why is it that everyone that you try to help out in times of trouble walks all over you. No thank you for your help. No I'll help out where I can. Just a constant I need....... Am I just too kind? Do I just need to be a bitch? I invited a friend into my home because she was having problems with her boyfriend. They needed some time apart to realize that they still had a great relationship. Then they break it off completely and she moves in indefinitely. She also doesn't help with the house work, lies constantly, and hasn't tried very hard to get a job or keep up with school. I'm going crazy. I can't stand the lies. Or the insults. She doesn't realize how much that hurts me or my family. I have been praying every night that she will see the error of her ways and begin to work on what she is slowly destroying. I don't think that she ever will. I am getting too angry to think about this anymore.

There is one more thing I would like to rant about though.

Why is it that when I am taken that guys suddenly have an interest in me? or for that matter when I decide that I want to stay single and want a guy to chase me (in other words just be friends until they show me that they are worthy of more affection) guys pop out of nowhere to ask me to go hang out with them..... Just me and them........ I don't think that I will ever understand how this works. I just know that until my birthday (November of 2007) I don't want to be in a serious relationship. Because I don't think that my life will be on stable ground again until then. If it is before that then I will consider getting into a relationship but not until I can take care of what I need to on my own. I will never again have to depend on another person. I will share myself with other people but I will be able to stand on my own two feet if I need to.

Enough ranting for tonight.